Suck ass year keeps going.
I know that I haven’t written in quite some time, but there’s a lot thats been happening.
This semester is my first in programing, and it was going great, but some obsticles came along the way and my focus went shot to hell. I was starting to finally get a grip of myself and then I got sick, stayed sick for 2 fucking months, and the part that most tortured me was not being able to sing.
I got sorta out of being sick because I still have like an allergy that is very bothersome but then I was incredibly behind on my school work. My car got fucked, then my cellphone got fucked (a lotta money from my damn pockets), then my car drowned and with it my new cellphone and now I’m sick again (this time a stomach flu). This semestre is the epiphany of SUCK! I’m trying yo see the positives but the only positive I see is the hope for tommorrow and the step to this now, becoming a yesterday.
This is way too true… and I hate it. You might ask why, if it is you care, and the reason is I hate feeling weak and I feel weak everytime I feel I am the one looking for someone else. The truth is that most of the time I end up being the one looking for the other person and it sucks. I want someone to look for me and for that person to be someone that I want to look for.
I was looking around on my computer and I found this.It is a collage done by me a looooooong time ago for a friend.
It has some images that don’t interest me in the least, but I do have to admit it looks fine, and I LOVE THE IMAGE THAT’S IN THE CENTER.
*very humble of me haha*
My lying skills when I care about someone are the most pathetic thing ever. Or maybe Im just an extremely terrible lier. And specially when Im tired…u know I dont lie thaaat much, but I do tend to omit or just simply not say anything and when Im tired Im like an open window;u know, everything’s just there. I hate it!!! Why u might ask…well; I cant hide my damn emotions from anyone, my face says everything so then what I do is I just simply dont talk about certain things.
I gotta get to my stuff so bye.
So true for many of us
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lol
and the story of my life.
…I might have posted this before but I don’t remember hahaha
Orgasm for myself.
I woke up incredibly hot today and I began to pleasure myself. This time I wanted to masturbate and come by my g-spot. I started and I finally found it. I began to stimulate and it was feeling good but something was missing, so I accompanied it by also stimulating my clit…and holly shit I had a hell of a mind blowing orgasm I think for the first time(with myself of course). My body began to tremble, my toes curled up, my whole body was heating up, my vagina was tightning up and then…it al lossend and an intense release. I feel great.
You know when you feel that everything in your life is just tumbling down…
Life comes from death, at least so they say and now to be honest I feel like I’m dying. Everything in my life is just tumbling down and sometimes I just want a break from pain and sadness. Some time ago I felt like my life was great, but then “love” and life came along and have kicked me in the ovaries. I just feel so numb and when not numb sad and when not sad lonely. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I feel like I’m more alive being asleep. I ask myself why I wake and what’s the purpose.
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I don’t know…
It just feels sometimes as if its not worth it.
Why do we lose people we love?
Why do we care for people who don’t give a shit?
Why do we think about people that most likely don’t even remember?
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Most people nowadays don’t give a shit about anyone else other than themselves. They talk and talk and talk, but when the listener wants to to change his role the talker just doesn’t care to listen.
I wish people could learn to listen. Sometimes listening is not waiting for the other person to talk is making that person talk. Ask questions, take interest. We all want the same thing: WE ALL WANT TO BE CARED ABOUT!
